Mothers Day

Ive never been really close with my mom, well not that I can remember. And it’s not like I haven’t tried. It’s not like she hasn’t tried. Its just that things have been said and done that neither of us is willing to let go of. Of course she’s still my mom and I love her but it’s just not a typical mother daughter relationship. Like I honestly can’t remember the last time my mom told me she loved me. And the weird thing is it doesn’t even upset me. I’m just used to it. Ive accepted that my moms more of a guardian than a mother. I’ve come to terms with the fact that my mom is more concerned with how I appear to other people and my accomplishments than my actual well being and happiness. She would rather brag about me getting good grades than be able to actually have a real conversation with me. When I’m in a ball crying in my room my mom doesn’t come in and try to talk to me she closes the door and pretends nothing’s going on. But like I said Im used to it. I’ve learned to depend on myself and to not put my problems on display for the world. I just deal with things on my own. It’s easier that way. So happy mothers day mom. Lets just pretend like everythings okay today.